On the morning of Friday September 11th 2015 I woke up later than I usually did because I had gotten home later than usual the night before. I laid in bed for 20 extra minutes because it was finally cold enough in my room that I was so comfy I felt like I couldn’t move. Jax was pretty comfortable as he was also because he hadn’t woken up and started kicking me like he usually does in the morning.

When I finally got up I got ready like any other day. When I walked outside it was cooler than it usually is, it actually started to feel like fall. I got coffee on the way to work like it was any other day. The whole morning I contemplated if I was going to be too tired to go to Carter’s with my best friend after work. I kept telling myself this is my last chance to hang out with her just me and her for awhile because she is due on Tuesday.

At 11:10 am she texted me saying “They’re inducing me now!!!” At first I didn’t believe her, I thought she was trying to freak me out because I told her to let me know how her doctors appointment went then she said that. She sent me a picture to prove that she was hooked up in the hospital. I was in shock. Was this really what happens one day casually your whole life is just changed forever without any warning?! I don’t remember signing up for this..

Our joke was she was going to be late and I was going to be early. We also both assumed she was having a girl but we are both having boys. Shows how much we know.

I took lunch early at work but I didn’t eat anything. I just sat there like a zombie for thirty minutes. I knew once she went into labor or had her baby my pregnancy was going to become real to me. It definitely did even though she hasn’t even started having contractions yet. My best friend and I since 6th grade are both bringing real human babies into the world this year.. it’s still blowing my mind. Before it was real that we were pregnant but now us becoming moms is real. These little cute humans we have been bonding with for the past 7-9 months were not just going to be in our bellies forever one of them was coming into the world in next couple of hours and the next one in less than 70 days. We are going to be responsible for these lives for the rest of ours, it was finally all hitting me.

After work I went straight to the hospital to see my friend. When I got there I went in to see her and she totally didn’t look herself, you could tell she was in so much pain. After she got her epidural she seemed so much better she was talking through the majority of her contractions like they weren’t even happening. Seeing her be so strong made me realize I could do this too and if she could be brave through it so could I.

Around midnight it was time for her to start pushing. I was exhausted and knew I needed to go to sleep but I couldn’t go home. I had to meet baby k as soon as he was here and I didn’t want to leave her even though there were so many people there supporting her. At 2:04 am on September 12th my best friend brought my little godson into this world. He was the most perfect thing I’ve ever seen. I was so amazed that my two friends created this beautiful little miracle. It made me that much more excited to bring Jax into this world. I thought watching her go through this would scare me but its actually made me impatient. All I want to do is meet my baby.

You should have seen the look on her face when she looked at that baby I’ve never seen her so in love. The first thing the dad said when we walked in was “look guys I made this” with a huge grin on his face. I want that, I can’t wait for that.

I held Killie that night but I was in such shock I don’t think it hit me till the next day when I went to see them all again. I was sitting there holding him, he was sorta resting on my belly. Jax could feel it and was kicking the poor baby right in the back. Killie didn’t seem to mind he didn’t cry or anything but he was making faces so you could tell he felt it. That was their first unofficial meeting I can’t wait until they actually meet.

September 12th was the day my best friend became a mom & I realized I wasn’t just pregnant but I was actually about to be a mom in the next few months.


XOXO Jax’s Mama